SEARCHING OR SEEKING
Jesus says, "You search the scriptures, because in them you think you have eternal life, but they testify of my coming with the way, the truth, and eternal Life: for whatsoever things were written for our learning, that we, through patience and comfort of the scriptures, might have hope." (Rm 15:4) By searching, we are "ever learning and never able to come to the knowledge of the truth." (2Ti 3:7)
Up until now you have been searching, not seeking; trying to apply your earthly mind to various disciplines, as if you can force or think your way into the kingdom of God.
You have been searching for a very long time; longer than you realize. You have read a thousand books, maybe know the Bible from cover to cover, even joined various organizations, you have learned a lot, becoming very informed and connected to certain ideas, ideals and concepts, but, you are still the same human-identified being; you may have gotten some temporary mental/emotional relief, but there was no transformation - phenomena at best. You didn't change an iota; after awhile you were the same, you know a lot more, but you're still the same human-identified, human-acting being.
It's your acquired intelligence which leads you to think that you are smart enough, that using your learned information you can find the truth, "that you will know it when you see it!" You believe that with certain disciplines you can fix or control your mind; that you can control and make thoughts go away.
You are using stored information, imagining something, and looking for it. When you give up this type of mental-searching, which has become an earthly habit, and start seeking by going within, you shall find the truth, which builds the faith, that can set one free, if applied.
It has been a long journey. It's time to leave behind all kinds of so-called religious and spirit activities and disciplines. There is no need to recite or chant a holy name repetitively, nor do you need to distract yourself as in playing with beads or meditating on your breath. Let go of earthly things: 'learning' is forever continuous, it never ends, and it leads nowhere but the dark spirit worlds.
Now you should begin to feel that it's the searching that has been the problem. Stop reading and searching, and start seeking within for the kingdom of God. Stop living through OTHER PEOPLES' experiences and step onto the path, start seeking within. The New Testament Bible is a window into YOUR coming spiritual unfoldment. In hindsight, it's what you are about to experience on the path with all the good, the bad and the ugly spirit and spiritual experiences that restore your spirituality to consciousness as to who you are, where you are, why you are here and how to return home.
You will find if you close the door of your mind to the earthly things of your soul and go within, you can receive the knowledge of eternal Life, which when applied to yourself, leads to becoming born again of a righteous consciousness, spiritually. However, spirituality does not come through or by any effort of your physical mind; reading Matthew 6:19-20, "lay not up for yourselves treasures upon the earth, but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven of knowledge and wisdom."
Somehow, sometime, we all must pass through the change we term death into the great beyond called the spirit world. To many this is unbelievable and unprovable, especially to those who have lived a purely material life; but even to those people, many times into their earthly minds comes the thought - "Is this all there is to life?"
The nature of our being is that we are interested in knowing the nature of our existence, but we have no other experience of who we are but the physical. Right now the nature of what you are experiencing is based solely upon the input of your five physical senses, your previously stored memories, and your physical imagination. You have spent your entire life focused outwards into the physical world, searching, receiving information from the physical world.
Searching and knowing earthly information is not transformational, nor does it bring about any lasting changes, new earthly habits at best. Searching is only conduct aimed at bringing about certain pre-desired results, usually by following acute regiments of discipline, where the idea and the goal are imagined, and that some kind of mental/emotional struggle is needed.
Mankind and womankind must know that it was not, and is not, intended for them to live a purely material life, as most are doing, nor was it intended for them to live a physical spiritual life, but it was intended that we live the real life, which is, and should be, a Spiritual physical life.
Again; reading, listening and talking about spiritual knowledge DOES NOT make one spiritual: memory is an activity of the physical mind. No way is the way where the physical mind is supplying the power and the method, which is foreign to it by reason of that mind being in a body that has lived a strictly material life; always searching, hoping to find the truth in a book or another person, when the truth of the matter is that the truth can be found within. Searching only leads to ego bloat and arrogance, serving a self-created God.
The paramount reason for mankind and womankind being physical or physical spiritual is that they lack an understanding of their combined make-up, which is: body - soul - spirit.
People are neglecting the spiritual aspect of their life, spiritual knowledge through spiritual experiences, that would bring to them the peace within themselves, and yet they spend all their time seeking the things of this world instead of spirituality, knowing all to well that some day they will enter into eternity, that they do live on in spirit after the physical life. Then as the come to the end of their earthly life and pass through the vail of death into the spirit world, then they awaken to the realization of the importance of things not dealing with earth, and there is "the wailing and gnashing of teeth."
So, what do you want? - do you want to while away your time at earthly pleasures and work, working to lay up earthly treasures which you must leave behind, in many cases for others to quarrel over, or would you prefer to apply Jesus' teachings, and ultimately the blessings he has promised to the real seeker, and do, change and become born again, spiritually?
Seeking and experiencing is just one moment away because what you are seeking is not somewhere around the earth, nor do you have to search through a thousand books. What you are seeking is right there inside you; it's only a matter of creating the right conditions to experience the revelations that will effect the necessary changes: revelation, the rock upon which Jesus builds his church, and how he adds to it daily.
All is available to the seeker who is willing to go within and experience the kingdom of God. Those who seek God diligently, find God. He exists and He rewards those who seek Him. Repent; apply the teachings and make yourself fit for the kingdom. "Know ye not that the unrighteous shall not inherit the kingdom of God?" (1Cor 6:9)
Seeking, is seeking beyond physical or human intelligence; seeking with the brain and it's five physical senses are of no use: in other words, the brain and its senses cannot be used and therefore we must temporarily suspend the use of them. We need to disconnect from the physical and go within so we can receive spiritual revelations that normally can't be received because our attention is constantly focused outwards into the physical. We cannot connect with God and mammon at the same time; both cannot occupy our attention at the same time.
Come; inherit the kingdom prepared for you since the beginning. In the following pages you will find the knowledge which you can apply to become born again, spiritually: the knowledge, which when applied will clean your mind of scriptural, inherited and acquired religious and spirit weeds, which only hinder your spiritual unfoldment.
The God of heaven looks down on the children of man, to see if there are any who understand, who seek after God. The kingdom of God is always at hand, waiting for the real seeker. Seek and ye shall find the mysteries of the kingdom, for it is your Father's good pleasure to give you the keys to the kingdom.
However, except ye be converted and receive the kingdom as a little child, you shall not see into, let alone enter into, the kingdom of God. Remember: thou art never far from the kingdom of God, it is within you. Peace be unto you all.